"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision." Eleanor Roosevelt

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Losing

One Art
by Elisabeth Bishop

Best poem ever written. It's about losing. Losing car keys, losing love.

I am sure that I am that poem. Someone who correlates losing small things to losing big things. It wasn't until recently that I realized I had control over the things that leave me. Sure, things leave, people die, love resolves itself. But now, I know that I was accepting that things leave. Like they had their own destiny. They left me.

I can keep things close, honor them and hold them dear to me. Even now that I know that they one day will leave my life... I can watch out for those little pieces that mean so much to some and so little to me.

I'm not talking about money. Most people correlate saving money to saving life. I am talking about sunglasses, car keys, socks, and books. I am noticing that memories, joy and laughter are not just fleeting, but precious.

I would give anything to:
talk to my dad again,
have nikki taste my butternut squash lasagna tonight,
touch noses with my niece,
love bitterly,
begin again with maestra,
toast p and green hornet's wedding,
drive my jeep,
feel my ex's reality,
have my cell phone, and
touch my grandmother's hand.

So, take a moment and enjoy all that you have.
It's worth all that and more.

3 comments:

Nik said...

I suppose you've mastered it well. Don't master it anymore. There's no real loss--just rearrangement. For instance, Priceline. They rearrange things nicely. $225. We'll be home 12/9 to 1/6. I'll starve until I meet the butternut lasagne.

P said...

Love you... Dreams about you are intense, I don't like it when you lose your phone. Lost is my favorite show...

Dr. Write said...

I had one of those being in the moment moments when I was holding Son's hand as we walked across the grocery store parking lot. His hand was so small and so warm, and I just enjoyed it for a moment, so I could remember it, so that when he's 16 and won't let me touch him, I have something to recall.

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